Saturday, May 9, 2009

Before I Was A Mom

I saw this poem on Painter Mommy and Kidz and thought it very fitting.

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes! to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .


This is my first mother's day. As I look back on the last year and even years before that dealing with infertility, I am amazed, humbled and grateful that we have been blessed with two baby boys. I never thought we would have one child and now we have two turning our lives upside down. There are many days that I want to cry because I fear I will not be able to handle motherhood. But then every day, I look at the day before and say the boys and I survived. This Mother's Day, I will cry with joy because of Dean and Samuel bring be such joy and fulfilment.

Happy Mother's Day!

1 comments:

sarah said...

Happy Mother's Day..! Thanks for posting that poem - it was very fitting. :o)